Here I sit at 9:30 at night wondering if I should get off my lazy butt and make Annie some fudge to take down to her when I pass through her neighborhood tomorow. Normaly this would not be a question, but right now I'm just a little anoyed with her. There is a seminar on period garb in Champaign tomorow and she was thinking of going to it with me, unless of course she had to work.... well she's working and forgot to let me know that she couldn't make it. I don't think that I am very high on her priority list today, unless of course I did something to make her mad at me.... can't think of anything off hand... and if she is mad at me it'll be a while before she tells me why.

Just found out that one of my mentors in the SCA may no longer be able to fight in heavy weapons, it seems he may have had a minor heart attack, well we will find out more next week when he goes in for more testing. Hope he gets good news, we need his skill in the Pensic Wars.

Last night I spent some time cruising through the world of blogs and ran across some blogs that were heartbreakers. I read one by a 14 year old girl, who is in a lot of emotional pain, talking about how ugly she was and wondering how she could stop hurting herself. What she said that got me thinking was that her family seemed to think that if she tried hard enough she could just be normal and just rise above her pain and despair. I spent most of today wondering how can I give her encouragement with out everyone thinking that I am a perv setting her up. I have seen where this kind of pain, and lack of family understanding can lead. My exwife went through some of the same things and it nearly destroyed me trying to save her. To watch someone in that much pain and be completly powerless to help them is almost more than I can bear. After I got divorced I swore off playing knight in shining armour rescuing damsels in distress, but I cant help but think there has to something that I can do to help, even if just a little, but what??